Been troubled by it for weeks... That feeling of worry, anxiety, frustration... All in one... All in my heart... Can't believe that it's happening when I thought I am strong enough to withstand it all.
It's so unfair how some people can move from day to day without a care in the world. I tried the same, I failed miserably. The harder I try, the worse I feel. How to stop caring, loving and bothering? I couldn't. Not especially when I have made a "connection" with that person. Not sure how to explain it, maybe like in Avatar. I don't know.
And when I reach my threshold of holding it all in, I realise that there's no one really there to help me out. In case, I breached that threshold. Some offered friendship with conditions, some offered an ear but without listening. Some tried to be a friend but couldn't draw the line between being a friend and being someone else.
I could only try my best to re-think, re-tune, re-contain whatever it was I was holding in.
Friends, ask not what your friendS can do for you. But what you can do for your friends. ~ Haffis B Salim.
