It's been a while since I shared about something that affects my emotional well-being so I thought it'd be a good time to share it in this post.
In recent months, ever since I started work as a Field Development Counsultant (layman is Area Manager), my emotional health has been swaying crazily. But last week, it took it's toll on me. I just couldn't stand it anymore. Everything didn't go well for me, be it at work or personal life. To cut the sob story short, I ended up having a long conversation with someone who I now consider as a very close friend (maybe even confidante).
In that conversation, he (the confidante) listened patiently, offered words of understanding as well as encouragement, and gave me advice. And through that conversation, I realized that the expectations that I had for myself was so great that it brought additional pressure into my already stressful life. I blamed myself a lot for my lack of experience, my inability to help my instructors and even my constant reliance on that confidante. (Poor him, huh.)
For the first time, I shared my heavy sense of guilt of having to depend on him, of not contributing much to his work in contrast to the great amount of effort he put in to let me learn from him. I also felt saddened that I couldn't share his workload or lighten it, like how he did for me. What made me feel even worse was when he said that he never felt that way and that I had, in fact, helped in many ways. I knew for certain that he wasn't being sarcastic and he was sincere about what he said.
Towards the end of the conversation, I felt much better. I also felt thankful to God for giving me a friend like him. I have many friends, close ones too, but no one came closer to understanding me like he did. I couldn't understand why God blessed me with such a person in my life but I am thankful for it.
Since I got to know him, even more now, I am always inspired by him. The way he works, the way he thinks positively always and the patience he shows even during the worst of times. To some of you, I may sound exaggerated about this person but believe me, he's one of a kind. And I am glad that our paths crossed for me to know him, work with him and be his friend.
So bro, I dedicate this post to you for being a wonderful colleague, a great friend and my confidante. And wish you an early Happy Birthday too!
